Hurt

(19/06/08)

I've just watched the video for Johnny Cash's Hurt. Apparently Bono called the song the greatest piece of art from the 20th century. I'm not usually a fan of Bono, he's a little bit too smug for my liking, but the man has a point.

The thing I love about music is the way a song can just encapsulate exactly how you are feeling at a moment in time & bring all this emotion to the forefront.

I've been doubting recently that somebody appreciates me, I have been really focusing on this person, who does not seem to realise how lucky they are to have me in their life. This may sound vain, it's not meant to be, part of earning a healthy self-esteem is to appreciate yourself for who you are.

I've noticed I seem to lose myself when I am romantically interested in somebody, I stop being true to myself & want to change to please them. I definitely need to address this as this smacks to me of not being comfortable that I'm lovable as I am. Intellectually I know this to be true, but I don't think I've grasped it emotionally yet.

The last line of the Sex and the City movie, which I adored so much, was "Love is finding someone who loves the you that you love" I think I could do with keeping that in the forefront of my mind at all times.